one-man blank machine....

i found myself in a congested traffic situation today. during this 'situation'...which was out of anyone's control, I found myself blocking a car, which was blocking another car, which was blocking another car... I grew a bit agitated because i needed to be somewhere, not to mention so did every other car behind me. well, the jerk off behind me decided that she'd help the situation by honking endlessly at me. i looked in my rear-view mirror and made my stereotype of the two inexperienced teenage drivers, smoking, driving their beat up old truck, and it was obvious that it was more important for me to get where i was going than it was for them. (right? not.) anyways. in the midst of the loud drone of the horn behind me, furious, i threw up my 'not-so-jesus' finger, and continued to notify them that they were assholes. long story short, i had to go a little out of my way. One U-turn, 3 exchanged honks, and far more words than i care to share later, i was back on track to my destination. Once I had calmed myself down, i heard my radio calling me a name. (actually it was just the song) Train's newest, "One Man Wrecking Machine" was the song playing during this escapade.

it was the words to the chorus that got me thinking. "I am a one-man wrecking machine". So often I excuse my ill behavior by saying that I am just one person, my actions really wont mean a whole lot-afterall, i am just one person.

today i took on a new perspective. that one person driving the truck behind me held the power to potentially ruin my day. and she did for about 30 minutes. not only was she a one-man wrecking machine- but I was too. i had the choice to either wreck her day or make it. by freaking out and overreacting to a minor traffic inconvenience, i possibly wrecked her day too. so while i'm only one person. i still have the power to make or break someone's day.

each day we take on a renewing title of a one-man 'blank' machine, and it is our choice whether we will choose to be a wrecking machine, or (in my best attempts to come up with an oppositte of wreck, all that came to mind was love-which left me with 'love machine' which was funny to me...but for lack of a better word, work with me) ...we have the choice to be a wrecking machine, or a loving machine. (still funny, i know) in our single-personness, one-manness, we hold the power to change something-change someone.